I wrote this about 2 years ago on my health blog in a moment of clarity and it really holds true for me still today. Learning and re-learning that I don't need to constantly push my limits is something I struggle with almost every day. November 14, 2018 (almost 2 years ago) "I don’t need to push my limits to know that I am living a full and energized life. When I take the time to acknowledge my limits (despite what others may say), I gain strength and confidence in my own inner voice—the same one that is often neglected when I try to push through my stress and fatigue with too much alcohol, food, or partying." It would have been nice if I could have truly internalized my own words after writing this. The truth is that I would continue to push myself in every way imaginable for the next 2 years until I got to the place where I was so burnt out that I had not choice but to re-examine my approach. For me drinking alcohol was like pushing on off button on my brain. I used it as was a way to ground myself and let go of the constant pressure (constructed by my own unrelenting expectations). Sobriety is teaching me how important it is for me to press the pause button on my expectations, external pressures, and the judgemental "do more" voice in my head. Now instead of grabbing for the booze or sweets I am learning to ground myself in my breath. I am not always successful, but I am grateful that I have the opportunity to try again (and again) with each moment.
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